Why are those dads in movie so so so caring and nice and all.
Why do the kids in movies lead such a perfect life.
Why do mine suck.

I really really hate my dad so damn much.
You have such a big ego that swallows all our pride.
You want your pride, so do we.
Please fucking stop making a ruckus out of small things.

Because shouting at us WILL NOT FUCKING MAKE YOU LOOK ANY GREATER.
I hate people who shout.
If you wanna prove your stand, use facts. NOT RAISE YOUR VOICE.
Only lowly people without knowledge resort to that kind of shit
LIKE YOU. 

I rly hate people who shout.
It h=makes me scared.
Really really.. afraid.

Love should not contain fear. 
If it does
It's probably not love anymore

I used to love you dad.
I love you.

I loved you.

It's been awhile seen I've last blogged.
Life's been.... neither good nor bad. But really hectic.
Life is sec 3 is just full of work.
Homework - tests - revision -exams
Really tiring me out, feeling numb from all these non-stop studying.
I mug mug mug and what do i get? Average results.
It just demoralises me so damn much. I work so freaking hard for some digits on my paper.
So much time, so much effort, so much things I've put in.
And in the end i dont even do a good job.
I feel so empty.. yknow.. I screw so many things up.
Are grades really that important?
Really?
They say we should work hard to get into a good jc and then uni.
But does getting into uni makes our life successful? Confirm plus chop?
In contrast, does failing to get into uni makes one a loser?
Why? Isn't life all about happiness and everything why must we live it this way so forced?
Why can't we do the things we like?
I'm so freakin' tired of this.

Another thing... i don't really like my new class..
I mean, the people are nice but..
I just don't feel a sense of belonging.
That feeling when you know you belong there and you feel secure.. no...
It's so insecure there.. I don't really interact much with people outside my clique. 
I mean, it's awkward. They're nice people yes but i can't, i don't know how to talk to them.
A sign of social awkwardness? I guess so.

Feeling so damn out of place.
I miss my sec 2 class. :(
Sigh. 

See? My grades, my social life.. all screwed up. So damn depressed i just wanna die.
Screw it. 
But nonetheless..


so this is my and my bby girl STACY :D♥ Taken on the bus otw to some band outing.
Oh and SYF is nearing! Although i hate band and all but i still hope we can do well! :)
GANBATTE.